I’m about 6 pages shy of word count required pages for Maryna. The problem is the tale is over so I’m at this point where the story is finished but the book isn’t technically done yet. 6 lousy pages! ARGH! Ok I’ve made it in to the finish line, I can always go in clean up editing and add more information here and there and make it fluffed up to the word count but I’m majorly anal. It has to be all done, straight shot; beginning to end or I feel like I failed.
I should be celebrating 2 witches down two to go, and one of them is already a good chunk written out. I just wish it was all finished so I could stop sweating bullets. It’s starting to eat at me. “Contracted books” and “unwritten” are just things that shouldn’t go together for me. I was so excited about my first series and now I’m all worried about meeting my obligations. If I’ve learned one thing its that I will NEVER again sign a contract for a series of books that aren’t written. Well at least have the shitty first drafts done anyway.
So what am I doing next? Jumping from the pier and into the fire. I’m going to try and pick up Ember from where she is and get her first draft out. We’ll see how I can do sticking to that….
I also have that new idea that was poking around, we’ll see. But I have been doing better as far as focusing goes. I wrote 25 pages yesterday on Maryna, which was pretty good I think! Not great but it did get me to the end of the story and the first draft out of my mind and onto the file so…*nods with a grin* I won’t complain today, maybe.
I wanted to go back in and work on Maryna today, trying to grab the missing pages but I think it’s time she rests for a bit, give the story time percolate so I can look it over with fresh eyes…if my obsessive nature will let me do that. We’ll see.
I’m just wiped out, all the way to my core. I don’t sleep, even with the magic little pills my doctor gave me sleep is something I crave more than I get. I can take my pill, lay down and it takes me about half and hour to an hour to fall asleep. Then suddenly I sit straight up in bed and I’ve been asleep for almost an entire hour and a half. I’m wide-awake at that point and spend the rest of the night tossing and turning. Then if I dare lay down or nap during the day I get ranked on by friends and family, “you’re still in bed?” or “is that all you ever do is sleep?” and many variations of the same theme. Maybe this is part of my trouble. I’m so dang tired that I can’t function like a normal person and my brain is so tired that creativity is stymied?
It makes my head hurt just to try and figure it out. Think I’ll go lay down and take a short nap. Yes, all I ever do is try to sleep…
Huggles and Happy Reading!
Donica
Tuesday, March 28, 2006
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For years I was plagued by utter exhaustion too. It took a sleep study at a local hospital to discover that I've got Obstructive Sleep Apnea. Now I sleep with a C-PAP machine and it's wonderful to wake up feeling refreshed!!!! Betty J in OKC
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